That's right, I'm now 29.... Ok so I realize that was vague and there's no way you would have figured that out but I wanted to do it anyway.... Moving on.
On January 27th (yes I know the post is late) I turned 29 years old. How did feel? It was awesome! Yes I'm excited to at the doorstep of 30.
Here are a few reasons why:
- God saw fit to still keep me here
- God loves me and has never forsaken me
- I have an actual proper relationship with God instead of the 10 years of feeling unworthy to even mention His name. (seriously there was even a point where I thought killing myself would be helping God by getting rid of one less terrible, useless person)
- I'm alive!! (which 19 year old me would have thought was complete crazy with the health issues we had)
- I get to wear shirts that say "Level 29" - I should have took a picture but I now have a shirt that says" Nerds don't age, we level up" on the front and "Level 29" on the back.
- At the beginning of next year I'll turn 30 and at the end I'll graduate college with my bachelors degree. (something else 19 year old me would have scoffed at)
- etc, etc, etc
I know I know. Most people my age really dread it. If you're one of those people, my advice is stop taking to heart what society tells you that you should be doing or what you should have and all that jazz. Don't beat yourself up about past mistakes either. Life happens you know? Plus everyone's journey is different. So just trust God and go with it. Seriously, live life and be you. By the way, it's also secretly kind of fun for me when people are upset that I'm not upset with my life.
I'll give you an example:
talking
thinking
Society: Time to make her feel sorry about her life. So.. you're almost 30.
Me: Yep. 29 and proud yo!
Society: We'll see. But you aren't married
Me: I'm not married yet
Society: Still optimistic huh? Oh so you have a boyfriend?
Me: Haha no. (serious face) I'm just trying to focus on the things God would have me to do.
Society: Oh, but what about kids? I bet that stings
.
Me: I'll have them or adopt them or foster them eventually after I get married. I've got plenty
of time (says with a smile)
Society: But you're almost 30??.... (says dumbfounded)
Me: Yeah that's still plenty of time left on my clock plus Sarah.
Society: Did she seriously throw a bible reference at me? I can do better than this. But you're still in college and you work in a restaurant
Me: Yeah I started back when I was 26 but I'm actually on track. I even brought my 1.2 GPA to a 3.1. Plus as much as I want to have more money, school is what's most important right now. An end to the means ya know?
Society: Why isn't she mad yet?! But you live at home! (smirks) She must feel pathetic now.
Me: (sigh) Again, and end to the means. Besides I'm actually working on both of those. I'm going to start my own business soon. It's about (insert rambling about the future business that is actually in planning)
Society: She's so annoying! She should be having a pity party by now! Wait. But aren't you worried that getting older affect you wearing costumes and wigs and watching cartoons and all that other geeky stuff you do? That has to get her.
Me: Well the general lack of acceptance of geekery can be frustrating at any age but you're never to old for that kind of stuff. I mean seriously Society, you say it's for kids but who makes it? Adults my age. I don't see it being a problem overall. Just have to learn to shake off the negativity and take it one day at a time.
Society: AAGHHH! YOU'RE SO INFURATING! (stomps away)
Me: Thanks!!
All jokes aside. Let's encourage one another no matter which level they're at.
Be joyous and thrive!
